The very first blog, I’ve struggle with how to open this, I thought about so many different stories, so many different ways to open the first post on a new blog.
I used to have Xanga, you know, and that came so easy to just word vomit about whatever was in my brain but then I started thinking about: Why did I start this new brand, a new venture it’s chaotic, it’s 3 AM, the witching hour when your brain just can’t sleep and your million dollar ideas come to life.
I thought about how to introduce myself to you (my new and future friends), and if I wanted to play an on brand character type of business owner so to speak, you know the one that’s polished, put together, got their shit figured out, the one that has a type of voice, a certain attitude and and honestly being polished is just not part of being on brand for this. Because it’s all about “marketing”, isn’t it? What captures your audience? What draws them in, what keeps them there, but for me this isn’t that, this is my outlet to let my creative chaotic side just flow and honestly, I think we all need to do that sometimes.
What the hell is marketing anyway? It’s so damn confusing and always changing.
But then I start to wonder, you know what do people even wanna know about me, (be honest, do you even really even care?), who’s even listening, I don’t even know who my audience is and I don’t want some rando that isn’t on the same well wavelength as me to follow. This is MySpace with my top 8, LOL, an ode to Xanga.
I thought about where do I even start with this? Do I have something profound and relatable to talk about? Or do I pick up from some story that’s a hot mess and relatable or do I just pick up right from today? How far back do I go? God, in introducing myself is so hard to talk about, the brand is….well people don’t read a novel about your grandma‘s backstory, like some sites how they have their recipes you have to read through the whole family history before you get to the actual recipe…
So I thought I would just word vomit like I’m in high school again, I’ll do some cleaning up with the grammar and making sure that this voice to text captured the right words and not some AutoCorrect betrayal. The other day I was asking my husband what he would like for dinner, and I offered I could make carbonara (I’m a huge foodie and I’m huge into being not classically trained but authentically trained knowing the culture and the why behind some cuisines’ traditions and following that those kitchen rules strictly), but you know what my AutoCorrect asked if you would like some carcinoma for dinner instead, so yeah that’s me. During my daily grind, I’m very organized reliable, disciplined, but the other side of me is completely chaotic and 3 AM seems to be the perfect time every day, every night for that to come out.
I thought too much. I’m rambling now and I’m sure some of this doesn’t even make sense, but I don’t care to look back and correct some of it.
So, welcome to this new venture where I blog and let my creative side out and do the 3 AM things. I hope to find other others like me. Others like me at 3 AM: welcome.